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We Are Doing This Right Now!

I had my first infusion of maintenance carfilzomib and pills of cytoxan the other day. I had them both prior to my transplant, so my body has prior experience with them (or so I thought), so I didn’t think it was going to be much of a deal. I was a bit tired, so I went to bed a little early that evening.

I got into bed and tried to get comfy. My wife came to bed about an hour later. I was still awake and asked for the thermometer since I was feeling a bit cold. We are going through a heat wave and it was 95 degrees outside, and we don’t have an AC, so it was a little unusual.

98.9 was the reading.

I laid there for a bit longer, pulling up the sheet to my neck. I was starting to shake a bit. I got a fever when I first started carfilzomib and cytoxan months ago, so I guessed I was going through it again since it had been awhile.

99.8 at the next check.

I was really starting to shake, so we added another blanket. Time went by, and I added the comforter. I had all my winter blankets on and it was still quite hot outside. I took a tylenol trying to get my shaking to knock it off, so I could sleep.

102.6 the thermometer read a little while later.

Everyone who has been on chemotherapy knows 101.4 is that magic number when you call the on call nurse and most likely head to the ER. I didn’t want to call, since I had been through this before with these drugs and talked about it with the oncologist last time. I knew they would have dragged me down t the ER to get checked. They (and I as well) are very concerned about infections, but I knew this was just a chemo reaction.

Phase 2 of my reaction was about to begin.

I feel like a lot of people have conversations with themselves when throwing up is involved. Sometimes the buildup lasts for quite a while. “I don’t want to throw up, maybe if I lay this way or that way, I won’t puke.” I didn’t have any buildup or warning.

For a bit of dramatic effect, I’ll narrate the conversation between my body and head.

“Jothi! Get up right now!

“Why?”

“We are going to throw up right now!”

“Really? I don’t really feel nauseous.”

“We are doing this right now! Make a run for it.”

I went to the bathroom and almost immediately threw up. I found it very funny and ironic. I didn’t throw up at all during my transplant or at all during any of my previous times on full strength chemo, and I puked with “maintenance”. Go figure.

I got back into bed and started to shiver again. In hindsight, that probably was not a good omen for my stomach and esophagus. Half an hour later, I asked my wife for a zofran to try and settle things down. Twenty seconds later, my body said:

“Let’s do this again.”

“Are you serious!? We just did that!”

I just got into the bathroom again, and out came the remainder, and it felt like my intestines and liver as well. I got back into bed, with my shakes gone now, and promptly fell asleep for the rest of the night.

My saint of a wife volunteered to dispose of my two rounds of half digested dinner. I only made it to the garbage can both times, so it was very kind of her.

When I woke up in the morning, I didn’t have any fever or vomiting. I spent the day replenishing my fluids.

It’s only been about 4 months since I was on carfilzomib and cytoxan, but I forgot all my do’s and don’ts for those drugs. Maybe I should write a post on it, so I can read it.

But jeez, my torso was sore! I haven’t thrown up at all, probably in nine years. I guess you must have special puking muscles, and mine weren’t at all developed. I wonder if they have a work-out for that?

“For the low low price of $19.99, you can get our puking muscle training program. Strengthen your back muscles, side muscles and abdomen. We guarantee you can puke 5 times in a row without getting sore, or your money back!”

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Day +77

I’m at day +77 from my transplant today. I had blood tests and a bone marrow biopsy done last week. We are going to talk with the Dr. today to go over the results. It will be interesting to see how well the treatment worked.

My hair is starting to make a bit of a comeback. My head was getting fuzzy, but it looked like a bunch of my hair turned white or gray. I decided it was all chemo hair and shaved it all off again. It’s fuzzy again after a week and has my darker color this time, so I think it’s about to take off (my hair typically grows fast).

My facial hair went through a weird cycle. I lost my hair on my neck, cheeks, my chin and the left part of my lip. It looked like I had a bad biker mustache. Now around my mouth, it’s coming back with a vengeance. Making up for lost time? Especially my left part of my lip, the hair is thicker than it was before and growing like it’s on steroids. Hopefully the right side of my lip catches up. Maybe I can grow a good curly mustache now?

Sigh, the weird effects of chemotherapy….

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Bumblebee saloon?

We went to the beach yesterday. We found a good spot for lunch. After sitting there for a few minutes, I noticed bumblebees were flying around in larger quantities than you normally see. I looked over and could see fresh water leaking out of the hillside opposite the ocean.

It looked like they were coming and going from whatever they were doing (visiting flowers?), and stopping in for a drink. Perhaps they were swapping stories at the water cooler? I thought it was pretty cool and thought you might like to see.

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Yukon’s Pose

Yukon is taking a break from a nap and striking up his regal pose, showing off his manly chest hair.

He says, “I’ve been working hard on my chest hair. It was cold this winter, so it grew extra long. I make sure to get lots of chest rubs, to get hand oil on it and it exfoliates my skin. I make sure to get extra exercise by stealing the human’s slippers and try and get them to chase me. My goal for next year is to keep working on it, and hopefully it will be black and curly. Doggone, I’m a manly!”


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My Central Catheter Humor

I had a central tunneled catheter placed in my chest for harvesting my stems cells and transplant. I got to the operating area early in the morning and waited for my name to be called. After 15 minutes or so I was called and walked back to the prep area with the nurse.

She gave me a gown and told me to change. When I was done, she asked,

“Do you have a hairy chest?”

“Umm…. Yes?”

“I’m shaving it off.”

“Ok”

So she had me lay down on the bed, open up my shirt, and she got to work. Buzz buzz buzz. It turns out she only needed to shave my upper part of my chest, right above my nipples, all the way across.

I saw myself later in the day, shirtless in front of a mirror. Clear skin on the top and a hair bottom. It looks like I have a tube top on. Too bad I’m not busty. Actually, I take that back, I’m not interested in man boobs.

Speaking of boobs, the way they placed the catheter, I had both lumen ends in my armpit, which was a bit annoying. I was telling my family this, and said,

“I’m going to start wearing a bra just to hold my tubes from swinging around.”

My daughter quickly volunteered to take me bra shopping.

Anyhow, the catheter did its job. It turns out, one of my ends fell apart after stem cell collection and no one noticed. Come to find out, without the ends on, it’s like having a (clamped) plastic vein hanging out of your chests. Due to the infection risk, they yanked it out, only after a few days of having it. A week later they installed a picc line in my arm for the high dose chemo and stem cell rescue procedure.

I’m at day +5 right now for the myeloma people out there, and I’m hanging in there.

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Wisdom From The Billy’s Of The Hills

I’m not sure who wrote these, but most of these are pure GOLD, enjoy.

𝐎𝐥𝐝 𝐇𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐖𝐢𝐬𝐝𝐨𝐦:

Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.

Words that soak into your ears are whispered, not yelled.

Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong.

The best sermons are lived, not preached.

Keep skunks, bankers, and politicians at a distance.

A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor.

If you don’t take the time to do it right, you’ll find the time to do it twice.

Don’t corner something that is meaner than you.

It don’t take a very big person to carry a grudge.

You cannot unsay a cruel word.

Every path has a few puddles.

When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty.

Don’t be banging your shin on a stool that’s not in the way.

Borrowing trouble from the future doesn’t deplete the supply.

Most of the stuff people worry about ain’t never gonna happen anyway.

Don’t judge folks by their relatives.

Silence is sometimes the best answer.

Don‘t interfere with somethin’ that ain’t botherin’ you none.

Timing has a lot to do with the outcome of a rain dance.

If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin’.

Sometimes you get, and sometimes you get got.

The biggest troublemaker you’ll ever have to deal with watches you from the mirror every mornin’.

Always drink upstream from the herd.

Good judgment comes from experience, and most of that comes from bad judgment.

Lettin’ the cat outta the bag is a whole lot easier than puttin’ it back in.

If you get to thinkin’ you’re a person of some influence, try orderin’ somebody else’s dog around.

Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll enjoy it a second time.

Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.

Most times, it just gets down to common sense.